I'm Not Returning for Nothing/Confessionals

Day 22

“	It was a good move and I can't say I didn't see it coming, my allies didn't prevail and all I can do is blame it on myself.. I will try my best to get myself back into this game, but the chances are very slim. Good luck to All of you, If I manage to become part of the jury there is only one person left in the game that actually deserves my vote, the rest of you are whole bunch of tossers who need a reality check. If I get back in this game, I'm not returning for nothing, I'm returning to win this game.	”
–Nick

“	That was a close one. Somehow Nick was able to coerce 3 others to join him and try to get me out. He didn't play his idol, so we were tied in the initial vote. Only because during the day, I had to do some scrambling and got 2 people to switch to Domca in case he played the idol. I was under the impression that he would be the only one to vote my way, maybe Domca too. So if I was able to get 2 people to switch and he played the idol, there would still be a tie, but it would be 2-2 for me and Domca, then on the revote Domca would be voted out again. I was a bit surprised to see that there were 4 votes on me at the first vote, and then 3 more on the revote. But I'm still here, still have an idol, and have a vendetta to find and exterminate those who voted against me. Nat and Aaron are with me, and we've been postulating on who the other votes were. I'm pretty sure Domca and Jesse. But the third person is a mystery at this point. It could be Jossue, but I don't think so. Jody could be giving me lip service right now. I don't think it was Jessy, and I don't want it to be Aly. But I believe I'm in the majority group so the next few votes should go as planned. Unless they don't, which could be fun. I do know that I'm going to be on guard, and if I need to play the idol earlier than I want to, I will. I'm not going out without a fight, and if someone else wants to win this game, he or she will have to go through me to get it. So they better be ready to bring it because I'm ready. Apreesh!	”
–Ryan

“	I'm trying my best to get me an easy match up in the next RI duel, I'm not going down without a fight!I'm going to work my hardest to get me back in this game and to you others who voted me out, you have been warned, to the Allies who flipped in the re-vote, I'm coming after you. So you better be prepared.	”
–Nick

“	This was the wrong decissions for Huanca. But more importantly, it was the wrong result for my game. But okay, let’s see what I can do now without Nick. I suspect something is going on with Aaron and the Ocainas. I don’t know what, but he didn’t seem to even want to consider Ryan going home, which means stupidity or something else. Also, only 3 people voted against Ryan. Myself, Jody and who else? Domca might be going back to Ocaina, but at least one if not both of Jessy and Jossue lied to me. Things in the game is starting to look like I might need to stick with Huanca for longer than I wanted to. Either that or get into a tight group with Ryan. Eurgh. Either way, I’ll do what I gotta do. I’m probably not in danger yet, but I gotta set myself up to not be in danger ever.	”
–Alf

“	So after talking to Ryan I ended up alligned with him, but um… Like they say in “A song of Ice and Fire”: “Words are wind”. He talked about taking out a Huanca next, but he did not want Aaron or Aly out, as he feels he can work with them. He wanted to target Jesse or Jody, so I suggested Jesse as a bigger threat. I also spoke to Domca, where I made my alliance offer to her. I don’t know if anyone else has done that, but she seemed really happy. Though I am not sure about what she said exactly. She seemed happy anyway. Then I told Jody about my suspicion towards Aaron and Aly not being 100% in the Huanca alliance. I told him that Ryan seemed very confident and that he can play with them, this information combined with how they kept pushing for Ryan to stay last time, I hope I can get some real doubt in his mind. What he did after that was to target Ryan openly in the alliance chat to see if they still are set on keeping Ryan. If they are, something fishy is up and Jody will know it. I still trust Jessy, I am still unsure about Jossue. As an update on those alliances. I like everyone in the game on a personal level, its nice to have a chat with Natalie now and then, she is the one I talk most to lately, but not much strategy as we aren’t like, aligned. The only person I have dislike towards is Jesse, I think he is a very angry and spiteful person. How he, who is in his late 20s can send messages to Ellie about what an idiot she is etc. is just disgusting. An adult should not bully a child, fuck you Jesse and good riddance, I hope he is out of here soon. I am really curious if my way of playing the game will pay off or get me out. Either way I will be proud of my game as I have been nice to everyone and had a good social game and a lot of fun. And I will not just be someone who follows the stronger people, I am playing MY game. So even if things don’t always go my way, I am doing my own thing. I will do whatever it takes to survive if I ever become a target, but right now my focus is on putting myself in a good situation.	”
–Alf

“	So we're making steps closer and closer to being the majority group. Me, Aaron, Alf, Jody, and Aly are set to the be the final 5 as long as we can knock out two more. With another TC coming close, then a duel, we'll be getting closer to our goal. It's almost time to start planning for the dynamics inside the 5 once we get there, however, it's a little to soon to start working toward securing myself in a F3. My biggest concern is for Aly since I do want to stay truthful and loyal to her to the end. Ultimately, she'll be in everyone else's targets first. Going to have to pass that bridge as it comes. One thing is for sure, I really don't miss hearing Nick go on and on about the idol, nor do I have to put up with Ellie-The-Brick-Wall anymore. It's been really nice at camp lately :D	”
–Jesse

“	I won immunity! Let me tell you there is no greater feeling than winning immunity. I won by a landslide too! I guess I'm just better at knowing when I'm being lied too, so watch out guys Aaron's coming.	”
–Aaron

Day 23

“	Ok, I know tribal is just hours away, but I gotta get this out before the vote. The Huanca guys are basically trying to get us to vote Domca. It does make the most sense, as she can probably take out Nick, and if she does go on a crazy run at RI, I still don't see her getting the votes in the end to win. On the other hand, I did receive 3 votes, and I'm fairly certain it was Jody, Jesse and Domca. And while I have no problem voting for any of the 3, getting a Huanca right now should be a priority. Aaron is vehement about voting Domca, but says he will vote Jesse/Jody next round. I really don't know if I can trust his word on this. After reflecting on how quickly he was to offer Nat a final three alliance with the person of her choosing, I conclude that he was trying to find out who she is close with. Which leads me to believe that the old Huanca is operating as a block of 4, but disguised as 2 pairs-Jesse/Jody and Aaron/Aly. Aly is firmly in my pocket at this point, and is very adamant about how she is only playing them, and she hasn't given me a reason to doubt her yet. This is good for me as my plan to take her to the end would mean there are 3 votes up for grabs between myself and whoever the third person is sitting at the final tribal council. Alf has expressed interest in working with me because he sees the both of us as being in bad spots in the game. I'm not sure when "in control" is a bad spot, but whatever. I will let him believe what he wants. He has been sharing some valuable information as to why I was the one they went after, and it is mostly because they were planning on using Nick as an extra vote after Nat let it slip that the switched tribe of Ocaina was going to be pagonged. He didn't have to tell me that, but I'm glad he did. I think I can count on him to get through these next few votes, and then his use to me will exhausted and he can be sent packing. I want to keep Domca and break up that trio, but making waves isn't the best idea right now, as they correctly assumed it was me behind the plan to rid Peru of Nick. I'm still on guard, my idol will be in my bag at tribal, and if I feel like the tide has shifted again, I'm playing that blicky. I'm not going home with safety in my pocket. As far as my knowledge goes, there are only 2 people left who know I have it, and that is going to remain the case until it is necessary to reveal that information. I'm still undecided on where to vote as of right now, but after I talk with the rest of the "alliance" you can rest assured that the right person will be going to face off in RI. Apreesh!	”
–Ryan

“	This week has been a lot calmer with Nick for sure. Not as much paranoia then with him. The vote tonight will be very important it will solidify how the game will be. I have a choice vote out domca and anger jossue and jessy or vote out jesse or Jody and anger the huancas. I don't know what I am doing to do hopefully I will make the right decision.	”
–Natalie

“	I am trying to throw Aly under the buss to Ryan. Mention how she and Aaron is so confident about Huanca majority and are running the Huanca tribe. I hope I can somehow change the target to her. I know it’s a long stretch, but it would be nice. Huanca has of course changed the target away from Ryan again, this time towards Jessy. I do not believe Jessy leaving would benefit me. I also suspect Aly might not be into that idea either, but can never be sure with Aly. Jossue… I don’t care much for him anymore, he is so stuborn and doesn’t seem interested in anything other then voting his own way. Last round, he was so stuborn about voting Aaron that he didn’t give a shit about Nick leaving. This time, he doesn’t care about anything either, he just wants to vote Jesse. He is either stuborn and not a good player, or he doesn’t want to play with me.	”
–Alf

“	I can almost feel the game slipping through my fingers. But I am not giving up ever. Both sides seem to be setting the game up for Ryan to win the game and I can’t do anything else than just hold on and lick ass to keep myself safe. I have made suggestions, but I don’t push it, I don’t have the power and influence to push it. Even if we are setting the game up for Ryan to win, at least that makes the group of people to work with bigger. Also I don’t risk getting left out of things right away. Aly seem to be planning on flipping too and if I don’t, I’d be in minority and on the chopping block next. I could of course be wrong about Aly, but something makes it feel like I’m not. I think the final 5 might end up being Ryan, Natalie, Aaron, Aly and either Domca or Jossue. I will do what I can to spread doubt and hopefully do something about it, but I cant do so much I become a target. I have already put my neck out there by trying to put the target on Ryan/Natalie with Huanca and on Aaron/Aly with Ryan, but I didn’t push it, I agreed to do whatever they want. Since it looks like it will be between Jessy and Jesse, I will go against Jesse. I feel like Jessy would be better to have on my side, she is also a voice who might help me out with the others who will gain power. I feel like I can trust Jody, so I spoke a bit openly about him again about my worries towards Aly, Aaron, Ryan and Natalie. Which is how I get him to target Natalie, I like that, Natalie’s name is put out there without me sticking my neck out too much.	”
–Alf

“	Ok, so the Huancas are dominating right now. I don't like that. They have 4 votes in their favor, which means it's possible elimination for me, Alf or Natalie. These people I think are seriously loyal, along with aly but she's Huanca. They're probably going to take her in with them. But I hear that Aaron and Aly are supposedly not totally loyal to Jody and Jesse and I guess that's good?? Ornah. Because they're thinking of going to Natalie and Ryan and that will mean that I might be in the minority if Jesse leaves. But I know that I'm not really safe at all this tribal council. Nick has been telling me that Alf, Ryan and Natalie are planning on blindsiding me? They called me a sheep when in reality I'm nothing like a sheep. Are you kidding? I'm not stupid, I have my own head. I already know that I should get out Ocaina, I already know that I should get out 2 people from Huanca. I don't think this will impact my vote because Nick isn't in the game and shouldn't be trying to puncture it. Right now my loyalty lies with Alf and Aly. ([1] also is this bad, Nick's trying to get in the game and when I said I would tell the hosts he said JK) After this tribal I'm going to go hard on Natalie and Ryan because if they get to the finals they're going to win. No doubt about it.	”
–Jessy

“	Was I sad to see Nick go? Not really. However, he was not my initial target. Nick is the perfect guy who I would bring to the final three for the assurance he will get no votes. Right now, I view the tribe as a 5-5. There's myself, Nick, Jesse, Alf and Aly against Jessy, Ryan, Natalie, Domca and Jossue. However, I do feel like it is very likely for anyone to jump ship at anytime. If whoever I vote for this upcoming tribal, I am confident that I will make the final three. Ever since I swapped tribes with two other Huanca members I have felt safe in this game. Hopefully it will stay this way! Also, Domca just sucks for not doing the challenge.	”
–Jody

“	I'm trolololing the fuck out of this game lmao XD. So I voted with my old Huanca tribe and Alf so it would be 5-5. And I blamed it all on Domca and they believe it LOL. Domca, I don't like you, I don't want you in this game, and my goal is to get everyone against you. Now Domca seriously doesn't have anyone that trusts her. I told Ryan that the Huanca's told me they were voting Domca to make it seem like they lied to me because of them voting Natalie. Making both sides think I'm with them 100% :) So should I take the risk of rocks or naw?	”
–Alexandra